before and now

i had faith and love when i have you
i had passion when i first make love with you
the fire, the fire burns me, works great with us

but now i have a very big question,
i don't know if i have to tell you this
it's a little different and it surely hurts

before it's too late

jumpy and jittery
my mind worries

i turn topsy-turvy
thought i had no reason

i over reacted

but i am just human
i need to inform the sun

how much he hurts me
and wasted all my devotion

now i try to redeem it
before it's too late

the rightful thing

i was wide awake
when you left me

bringing a hand carry bag
full of clothes and worries

you stop thinking
never heed to any reason

you acted out
without even listening

you flee away,
fading to the west

towards the sunset
and left my day

now your under the moon's beam,
embracing it

thinking that's the rightful thing
to do to me.

i love you so

you will not break
i know,
you will just bend

but for godsake
i'm human--flesh
now i'm bleeding

lost the wings
i have
you gave me

you once lend it
and so i borrowed

but you took it away
now, i long for the wings
i feel less of a human

merely because of you
who God has sent to me
to be my man, and my savior

now, you flee away--gone
in a far distant place
where my whisper can't reach

i love you so
please come back
for i need you.

you know

I was not hiding
and stop telling me that

because i am totally different
to what you think i am

i am not afraid of darkness
i've been here for so long

so my eyes can see it clearly
underneath the cover of your mind

now, so dark and luring
mocking me so hard in a distant.

Can you bring me there?

you're the man,
strong, powerful and brave
but i am not the man you are,
i bleed so deep
yesterday, i lost my day
for i was hurt,
and had a hard time
picking up the pieces
of my broken wings,
now i dream
of flying to the heavens,
can you bring me there?.

I can't answer your question

You visited me in these poor longings
here in this little sanctuary, you find it easy
you settle and feel at home, though short
you find yourself contented
with all my hugs and kisses
i intended them for you
to feel the warmth
that's what you've been longing
for a long time

have your fill and savor
the sweetness of my words
they are really yours, my love
they aren't honey but they were as sweet as that
please, don't ask me questions
all i can give you is this,
the fullness of my love
and that has no reason
your longing has become mine, too.
feel the wave length and try to understand
i can't answer your questions.

our foreheads kiss

until i see you tonight at the back of my mind
i feel your hazel skin, hairsuit, fine and smooth

touching my innermost, my sincere feeling
of love, and desired the warmth of your breath

the moment you exhales in my face as we kiss our foreheads
under the farm we cultivated for our futures contentment

my burden has gone, my weeks' worries
has flee away without us knowing their memories

now i'm here in the heavens, though dark
but the two constant firefly has keep us company

to light up our eyes and be able to see the mountains
the curves, and the flows of the river,

rushing down to the sweetness of the ocean
where you wish to swim, i'm now soaked wet

in our dive, i never regretted.

no force has forced me

of no force has forced me
a feeling of wonder now has lead me wandering
in this world of love that commands me
in my morning, noon and night time
this means i am but a crazy woman,
the man has taken my sanity
and driven me away
to an unspoken beginning
without the sight of where
to end must have gone,
if you know please guide me
i'll come with you
the end of this foolishness must end...

Happy Birthday Amy!!!

Another Year I’m wishing you another year
Of laughter, joy and fun,
Surprises, love and happiness,
And when your birthday’s done, I hope you feel deep in your heart,
As your birthdays come and go,
How very much you mean to me,
More than you can know.

My lovely poem for you

the poem of your love is here
the woman of your dream
the woman you always wanted

come go near and be captivated
by my one and only embrace

my love,
my darling,
my sweetheart

i am now ready to be devoured,
and ready to be swallowed
by your unending imagination

come take me and i'm always ready
ready for your next creation

i'll give you the rainbow of my thousand kisses
where you can use and have it a blanket
of the loneliness you have in a few moments

of the day you long and long to write for a woman
as lovely as your poem, you just created it.

real

real love cares
real love shows no fears
real love sustains
real love perseveres
real love ease the pains
real love doesn't mind
the past of his love

so am i to you
here i show how much i love you
i don't care how many won't undersand
i will surely persevere even in the toughest storm
for your love has removed all my fears
and does sustain me this needless adventure

i confess

wandering i am
i honestly claim

unease caused by your
not asking permission

you played my heavens
you call and tease the clouds

and free the rain
without hesitation

even in the knowledge
that's just a passing train

now i'm bound in my sadness
and i'm soaked in a puddle

now turned mud
for i tossed and turn
in this restlessnes

i confess, i am caught
and hooked.

i know

your pain exudes
your sorrow flows
but no fumes, no water
can exceed to its power
for its mindful nature
thinks a careless venture

will i ever change a word?
we didn't, we never
exchange a word
much more a promise
for the future
why wait, why long
that's of no use
i know.

She's crying a river

a mother's crying a river
when her little son offer her bread
that he was about to eat

the mother knows how much
he likes to eat it but because the mother
opened her hand and pretend to beg

the son with no hesitation
give the small piece left for him
for her mom in his innocence

tested him to own a piece of self-sarifice--
that is more precious
than the bread his holdin',

how many mom's are there
who teaches their children
like her?

only few
one is now crying a river

I will learn to be ready

I thought I'm ready to loose you
I thought I'm ready to forget you
I thought I'm ready to bleed for you
I thought I'm ready to be okay without you

But I ain't ready to loose you
I ain't ready to forget you
I ain't ready to bleed for you
I ain't ready to be okay without you

Please stay
Please stay

I will just learn to listen to silence
So that even without you saying
I will be able to let this love live
And learn to be ready as you are

set unspoken with your love
Betwen those lines of you silence
I will learn to forget, bleed and
be okay without you

Pronounce The Opposite

What if life is
pronounced as "DEATH"
and then I'll say when
I recieved your engagement,
"I'm dead".

What if love is
pronounced as "HATE"
and when you kiss me,
I'll say to you
"I'll hate it".

What if together is
pronounced as "SEPARATE"
maybe I'll keep on telling that
"I'm longng for the time we separate".

What if

What if humans are made of steel
I guess there'll be no need for doctors
you will surely endure all in serenity
with no worries for the future

What if humans can no longer feel
i guess thre's no use of hitting you
or complaining you left me
without even asking permission

What if humans can fly
i'll guess, i'll be the first
to be found in the moon
or sliding down from
the rainbow to the ground.

you'll never know.

JIM

How about this? As my friend ask me when he wrote this next to me.

my fascination is so strong that i can't take control but go with it's flow that is so strong to handle i'm now a little concupiscence fascination strong losing control the flow unable to handle on this honest concupiscence the moments tries to unfold all the conspicuous aspiration i'm now saving the moment moments unfold the conspicuous aspirations this moment shall i now save you are such a strong temptation like that wine on the rock hard to resist the aroma like scotch on the rocks such aroma as you sparkling and strong so hard to resist the spice stings and hits me here in my little delight your love, hugs and kisses hit me sting me i delight in your love i plunge in your hugs i go losing myself in your kisses i swear your strong enough your so delicious and savory, exquisie to be my dinner. you're spread on my table my exquisite menu for my dinner love and lust all mixed together

Be it

so be it
come devour-- all of me
and don't leave any
left overs drives me crazy
i was once and that stupify me
so please, i can be whatever
you like it to be
a lips so beatiful and tight
and red and colorful
delighted emotions
i will paint in my soft moans
on your rectangular table
of diamonds and gold
i just don't wish you
left me unfinished
eaten as if
you don't love me
perfectly.

the best moment i have today

why can't you be bold
and be free with those words
that couldn't imprison you

why not look at me
i'm free, i lose it
i don't care
i have you near me

and that's the best moment
i ever have today.

I have you and so they envy me

I don't care
I don't have your worry
I just enjoy
and being flattered
for I am now with the king
the man that every woman wish
but I never dream because
I always have him
my everlasting creation
I wish to be an artist
an paint this moment
in a canvas of our emotions
I know how much they think
we are really crazy
and that I perectly agree
I am to my king
I don't care
they don't have that chance
they just envy.

an exquisite dinner

my fascination is so strong that
i can't take control but go with
it's flow that is so strong to handle
i'm now a little concupiscence

the moments tries to unfold
all the conspicuous aspiration
i'm now saving the moment

you are such a strong temptation
like that wine on the rock
hard to resist the aroma

the spice stings and hits me
here in my little delight
your love, hugs and kisses

i swear your strong enough
your so delicious and savory,
exquisie to be my dinner.

desire

human desire
shameless desire
twisted desire
desirable desire
a love's desire
i desire you
and nothing else.

kitten

the new kittens you have is adorable
it's white colored skin seems so light
and smells like that of a jasmin
now your holding it that your own
and doesn't want to let go of it
it's now your new pet
i'm now lost and gone
for i'm no longer a kitten
but an dirty old cat that
you throw away
and never give a damn.

your so sublime

here you are again
the idle hands

that create temptations
in my weak heart

your so sublime
in your line

you burried me
as i do to you

here inside of me
come stay

i'll make you
the harmony

of a fire and
the wind that

wanted to devour me
that i can forget

it's now part
of my reality

that somehow
you wish to be.

My sole desire

What would you do
if you could taste, taste me

i'm now in my dream
so you can

i'm opening my wings
i invited to fly with me

let's have the sky
our first class suite

the clouds
our masters bed

and the stars
to light us up

with you
and me in this

fine night
a romantic event

just you and i
my sole desire.